Love Is A Drug

As I'm getting older the more relationships I have I've found that a few were hard to really let go of. I mean I guess that happens when strong feelings and real love is there you know? Alot of people stay in these emotionally abusive relationships cause they're scared to let go. Maybe because their scared they wont feel what that person makes them feel anymore, or maybe they feel it's worth fighting for. I mean everyone has been in that position where they feel like there is really nothing else out there for them so they try to fix things over and over knowing it'll never work. Basically I'm saying letting go isn't all that bad.
 
               Letting go is what makes you stronger for more situations like that one. It shows you  that you're growing emotionally and can fight those emotions when you need to. It'll make you grow into someone that wont let people walk over them and take advantage of what you feel because they know you won't go anywhere. I've been in both positions and honestly I've learned from it and I try my best now in every relationship to not be the abuser or the one being abused u know?
                           
               When you tear someone down emotionally and mentally it's the worse man. In the end you're gonna see the pain you caused, the hurt you put upon that person and you're not gonna feel too hot. Seeing someone that you hurt can be the most eye opening thing in the world. It shows you the evil you possess, the power you have over someone that will give u the world if they could. That power is shouldn't be abused you know? Honestly, It's all on the person that's abusing someone. You should see that YOU should have sense enough to let someone go. YOU should have sense enough to see how badly you're hurting someone and I honestly don't see why that would even not wake u up and show u how crappy you're being.

                 Anyone that stays in an abusive relationship is not in their right mind. That's clear and you see that. You see that you can take advantage and do what you please to that person and instead of sitting them down talking and showing them its not healthy you continue to use. Abusing them until YOU feel it's enough. No human being deserves to be abused or used for their feelings. It's the worse thing you can do to anyone and i'm saying this from experience from being on both sides of the fence. I take it as one of lifes lessons and I wanna share my life, my lessons, and my mistakes to teach and try to guide people to whats right. But i'll leave you with this. I've said this plenty .And seen it somewhere dont remember..
 
''Love is a drug''
And I feel so is abusing someone because it's hard to quit once you start.

Hip Hop

Hip Hop is my first love. I can remember being little listening to bone 
thugs, pac, and biggie. Running around yelling out WESTSIDE! Because I 
liked tupac more than biggie (R.I.P). But ...
 
that era of real hip hop is nomore. Today it's completely out of 
control. Every rapper talks about the same thing, Everybody wants to be 
a rapper. Songs are repetitive , No real lyrics, and no real meaning 
behind what they say. Sadly to say kids and even grown people of this 
generation take to it and make most of these ''rappers'' are what they 
are when they shouldn't be on that pedestal at all. People say if so and 
so was alive (i.e. Biggie) Hip Hop would be different. Honestly , I 
disagree because I think he would've been in the backseat now watching 
the game be mocked like the rest of us are doing. The point i'm making 
is, '' The game don't change just the n*ggas in it'', Meaning the game 
will always be the same but those NEW n*ggas will alter the game in some 
way where you have to get with it or take a backseat and it's just too 
many of these new cats feel me?  But see me being a hip hop head like I 
really am I don't see Hip Hop in a dying state, It's stronger than ever, 
UNDERGROUND but it's slowly moving back above ground because of artists 
like wale, wiz khalifa, etc. And I give big major props to all of these 
artists out here that are sticking to what THEY know being who THEY are. 
Giving us a different sound, making us look foward to something more 
unique and songs with substance and thats what hip hop is about. Yes, 
you are suppose to be creative and tell stories with your rhymes but 
''superman dat hoe'' ain't really much of a story that wants to be 
heard. It was really out of control when snap music and what not took 
over for a bit but now Hip Hop is slowly getting back into control and 
REAL artists are regulating how things flow and its a great sight to 
see. All i'm saying is sometimes when you're on twitter or whatever 
social networking site and you see someone post a song to you take a 
quick listen you never know how talented that individual may be. Lets 
get back to supporting real music, real values, and lyrics that inspire 
and mean something when you hear them.

The Heart

One of your most strongest organs... But I feel it's the most fragile 
one.

People underestimate how fragile it really is. No one should have to 
experience the pain of a broken heart but I feel it's all apart of life. 
We've all been to that point where we feel like we don't want nothing 
and no one but the person we love and want then it all comes crashing 
down. Whether it was just a crush, or love. Even if you've haven't 
experienced it one day you will. Everyone is different when it comes to 
having a broken heart. Some people can cope with it some can't. That's 
why you should always be gentle and '' handle with care '' when someone 
gives you their all. You never know how much damage you may cause life 
long to that person. To me when it comes to feelings, and love, The 
heart is your brain because that's all you think with. You may hear that 
voice in your head telling you don't do it, warning you about the pain u 
may feel in the end but those feelings always take over your heart 
always wins in most cases depending on how strongly you may feel.
Having a broken heart is sometimes hard to deal with even after you 
think you're over whatever it is that broke it. Because no matter what 
you're forever going to be cautious about who you give it to, and who 
you let in. It's like you're in this world where you feel anything and 
everything can break you down and beat you down even more. Sad enough, 
It's mostly women who end up in this world because she's been played 
with, and sh**ted on by some di**head but every now and then it's a male 
because some female is on the same sh** some d**khead dudes be on. 
That's why if you meet someone with a broken heart you can't force them 
to be better the only thing you can do is be patient, wait, and do your 
best to show them that not everyone is the same. Alot of people get hurt 
and say f**k love. But love is life, Life without love is no life at all 
and people need to come that in mind after being hurt. There's always 
someone out there to help you pick up those pieces of that broken heart. 
Be cautious but also be open to letting someone in again slowly but 
surely because you never know that might be the person to handle your 
heart the right way with '' care '' and '' love '' like you deserve.

The Game

We all play it.... To some extent.
 
In the end we all lose. Nothing sucks worse than being lead to believe 
something is real or that anything you felt was just a ''joke'' to 
another person. We've all been there. We've all been played or did the 
playing at some point in our lives but maybe at younger ages. I mean 
lets be honest we all did our dirt when we was younger and played around 
with peoples heads just to see if we could. Honestly, Thats where it 
should stop right there at that '' young age ''. When you're grown you 
should be focused on starting to build that life preparing yourself for 
the broken hearts, the kids, the mistakes and the issues people deal 
with everyday. The last thing on your mind should be f***ing with 
someones mind, body, and soul.
 
It's not just one sex doing it. It's men and women and honestly it 
really needs to stop. I know women say '' think like a nigga don't get 
played like a b***h '' or some silly sh** and that's honestly the worse 
thinking to have. What do you gain by playing head games with someone 
who may genuinely care about you? Life is meant to put your all into 
something and see what you gain from it whether its a broken heart or 
broken bone. And males are just as worse. '' I don't love these h**s.'' 
I admit I WAS that dude. And honestly looking back I hurt a good girl 
with that mentality and I wake up everyday regretting it.
 
Playing these mind games while you're grown will end up having you 
living lonely as f**k in a house fulla cats watching the ''stories'' 
feel me? And i'm sure nobody wants to be that one old crazy person on 
the block people don't even talk to because their miserable. Thats why 
all those games should be left for the kids. All i'm saying is be real 
from the jump put everything on the table so everyone knows the deal. 
Don't hide things don't play silly games to hide em or play games so you 
can f**k with everyone and tell everyone the same thing. Because at the 
end of the day it all comes to light and you're going to look like the 
fool. To me when people play games and mess with peoples heads, thats 
just a defense mechanism because they've been the person played and 
they're scared to put in their all. Accept that pain is apart of 
relationships, and love. Don't bring the same hurt you felt to another 
human being. It makes you a hypocrite.
 
Remember these 3 things....
 
Love Life
Life is Love
Every heart is fragile

Your Worth

I'm sure every woman and man has experienced someone in their lives that has made them feel like absolute crap. That someone being a person you loved more than anything more than life itself. Being in a relationship with that someone who constantly neglects your mind, body and soul. Making you feel less of a woman and detaches you from logical thinking to realize you don't deserve what you're being given.

Nothing p*sses me off more than seeing a beautiful, amazing woman in a relationship with a boy. Not a man, A BOY! A man will do anything to make that woman feel so good, so amazing, and like nothing in the world matters to him but her. A boy beats you down emotionally and tries to break you down. I mean women really need to wake up and realize p*ssy is power, yeah I said it. Your worth  is priceless and you shouldn't take sh*t from no man. I honestly really wish all women would see they deserve MORE in a relationship when they see things are so wrong and so out of place but this all ties into one of my other articles ''The Heart''. People think with their hearts and forget everything else and forget they deserve only the best.

All i'm saying is WOMEN mostly, Stop letting crappy dudes walk all over you. There is someone out there that will treat you like the queen u should be treated like. You should never settle for the bullsh*t when all it does is break you down and makes you feel like sh*t when you aren't. Women are the most BEAUTIFUL creatures to walk this earth but ya'll complex, confusing, and evil! Lol but I love y'all and i'm only speaking this to hopefully open the eyes of those chicks who are settling for less and hopefully keep the eyes already opened on they toes so they never fall into that ''slump''.  

Your worth is priceless, Never let a dude make you feel any different!

Never settle for less because you deserve the best.

Photoshop

Internet girls best friend! I've seen alot of these chicks on cam etc. I've even met a few females offline before. And theres one thing i've always noticed. They never look the same as their fawking pictures. Personally I don't understand whats the point of making yourself purple, blue or some other gay fucking color in your default. Or another thing ive noticed you bitches look THICK AS FUCK in your pictures... but get on cam looking sloppy. 

My point is please don't look like this gettin my hopes up:

Then get on cam or meet me looking like this:

I will kill you hide the body, And never speak of you again!